Two Mile Circle

Blacksburg, Va- March 10, 2011

The Two Mile Circle

(or Yesterdays Walk)

Heavy and wet-

Torrents of rain

Cold and damp,-

I saw snow flakes.

There was reluctance, and procrastination.

I called it contentment

There was avoidance by napping.

I said I was tired.

Getting dusky-

                      the

                               rain

                                           stopped.

Ever so annoyed I put on a coat and a rain coat over that.

I was NOT going to carry a dumb umbrella.

I put on my hat and my gloves,

miserable in every way
I did not want to be back to walking through drab.

Pepper black lab and princess of all that is right with my life-
looked at me quivering in anticipation-- "a walk? oh really!! A WALK!!! Oh I just can't stand it -
          I
                am
                    so so so so so
                           SO

                       exited.!!!"

  "What? You say it is cold and wet?
                             What?  A Walk- oh a walk..."

So out we go.
It was so much better when I was writing small stones- walks were full of wonder.
Even though it was January.

But now this month I march with the discussion of faith on my mind.
Nothing is tidy, nothing stays were I put it.

Just when I think I can express things clearly the fog rolls in, someone tracks mud on my ideas, the dog throws up on the rug, I notice my closet is too full,I loose my train of thought, a plant needs watering, the phone rings, a brother gets evicted from his house, a bowl shatters, and most of these things I could handle before I thought about faith...
Or
Or what?
Or I just knew the sky would clear, the mud got wiped up, the rug got cleaned up, I removed a a piece of clothing and that was enough, I laughed, brought water to the plant, answered the phone- or not. Did not fret about my brother, yelled at the dog for breaking the bowl, and moved on.
Or did I?
Half way home - I begin to warm up, my heart lifts, I know I will be alright.

Yesterdays stone-
My faith in understanding faith
Made a two mile circle in my mind
Good thing I left and came back home.

Today I was mercifully gifted with two perfect permissions to breathe- and when I mindfully breathe I allow room for faith- even if I don't understand it.

Fiona's writings on Perseverance -
(I am taking part in Writing as a Spiritual Practice this month with Fiona)

My Daily Calendar reminder -"Patience is the best remedy for most trouble..."
"It is not good to have zeal without  knowledge, nor to be hasty and miss the way." Proverbs 19:2

May your guideposts to faith always come at just the right time. But know this~ if you loose your faith there will be those of us praying you through. Blessings- teri